I am more like Nikola Tesla than Albert Einstein. Tesla thought up extraordinary new technologies, but the real test was whether or not those inventions actually worked. Einstein, on the other hand, saw patterns in the outside world and mulled over them until he ‘culled from the herd’ everything but the most internally consistent reasons. Tesla could point to the invention. Einstein had to point to the math.
Like most people, I have a dominant cognitive function -- my mind’s first point of contact and the primary lens through which everything gets filtered. My dominant process is technically called Introverted Intuition. Introverted intuition is a learning function (technically called a “perceiving function”), and works by watching one’s own mind form patterns. After years of use, eventually an introverted intuitive begins to see the ‘pattern of the patterns’ and begins to understands that what is happening inside of themselves cognitively is also happening for other people.
Why do you want to know?
For me, there is no such thing as data separate from the person holding that data. That is to say, my perceptions will always color the information I carry and so data is never perfectly ‘clean’. This is why I will frequently counter an inquiry for a piece of data with a question (such as), “Why do you want to know?” I'm not challenging your need to know -- I'm in desperate need of context. The context changes the content, and so if I don’t know why you want to know I can’t produce appropriate data/response.
While, I recognize that this can be most infuriating for some people, you need to know that your concerns in this regard matter very little to me. That said, I can be pressed to deliver without context. In such circumstances; however, the results are on you. I easily wash my hands of your inability or unwillingness to effectively communicate or define requirements. Side note: This is why I very often vet people for their social usefulness, not the data they hold (unless it is the data that makes them useful).
I can come across as arrogant; however, I urge you to look below the perceptive to the thinking patterns underneath the affectation. For me, there is little to no insecurity about being ‘right’. My ego is not pinned to such a metric. If you don’t agree with me, I may debate with you about it. I may want (for your sake) for you to agree, but ultimately I understand that perception defines reality and you may just be seeing things fundamentally differently. I am comfortable that proof is in outcomes and I know that you/I will come to learn how wrong you/I are when events play out.
That said, I have a well-guarded, secret insecurity. I am surprisingly sensitive and anyone I allow to get close to me can cause great suffering and/or harm. This is my superhero vulnerability. It is very disconcerting for me to know that I am wired to be sensitive without the benefit of commensurate (natural) emotional intelligence. As a result, the arrogant front you may perceive has nothing to do with deflecting being "wrong." Such an outward affectation is specifically intended to deflect against the hurt and pain another person potentially represents. It’s a true wall, an impenetrable domain around my inner psycho-social-sanctum that you may or may not ever be invited into.
That wall was much thicker and impenetrable in my youth. As I crest 50 years, I understand that my personal happiness is directly linked to their willingness to be vulnerable. I am still be protective, but I'm not so nearly closed off universally as I was growing up. Now, I feel I have healthy boundaries which allow special people in, who are the lucky recipients of my extraordinary understanding. 8^)
I feel I have a pretty good conscious relationship with my emotional side. I have a few blind spots, but I would characterize them more as pet-peeves or operative misbehaviors. I am generally very aware of how things are impacting me emotionally, although I admit that I don’t always know what to do about it. Historically, my inappropriate ways of handling deep stress showed up as childlike self-indulgence. I rarely ‘temper tantrum’. I am more likely to get prideful as a first line of defense, and then move on to sulky and mopey. I may get angry, though this will generally be a controlled internalized version of the emotion (unless it is spastically redirected fear, pain, or doubt).
How do I think?
I make decisions based on impersonal, analytical criteria. Consequently, it is functionally critical for me to be intellectually honest (at the very least, with myself). However, since I lead with an intuitive process, I give credence to creative internal thought. It is important to understand that I am not scanning for data that could be ‘wrong’, I am scanning for new patterns that could be ‘right’. For this reason, I must pair my intuitive intuition with a "Co-Pilot of Extraverted Thinking." The only way to truly know if those patterns have merit is if they play out in the ‘outer world’. If they work, fabulous! That was a great new pattern. If they fail, then it’s back to the internal drawing board (or, quite likely, on to other, more stimulating thoughts).